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Nobody Knows Where They Might End Up [Nov. 21st, 2005|12:57 am]
Terrance Lively
Well its time for the holidays again. And I am already tired of Christmas decorations and songs. I am really dreading an evening with all the family, but I guess I will make it through. I just need to find my flask. Been working like crazy as of late, but doing alright.

Was watching television before I came into work today and like always I watched my shows. While I was watching "Grey's Anatomy" (which is a wonderful show if you haven't seen it), I came to the realization that I am Dr. Meredith Grey. I was watching her as she tried to salvage a relationship that was doomed, put up a happy facade, and kept a general distance from people. I sat there going, "that's me." I distance myself from people because I am afraid I will make them miserable. I am miserable, and I just don't want to bring happy people down with me. I put up a face of strength and happiness, but truly I am depressed. I am afraid I am going to be alone. I am afraid of the future. I don't fear risks, just the future. How it turns out, I don't really care, as long as I do my best. I really don't know what I'm trying to say, but I tried. Kisses and love
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[User Picture]From: jlowe64
2005-11-20 10:54 pm (UTC)
I know what you mean, babe. I really do. I do the exact same thing a lot of times. *hugs*
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[User Picture]From: tlively35486
2005-11-24 04:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks...hugs back
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From: neo_dave
2005-11-21 02:22 pm (UTC)
"And I am already tired of Christmas decorations and songs"

Try working in retail. It's been a winter wonderland there for weeks...

Hugs for Thanksgiving-related awkwardness. Hope you can get through it all

Dave
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[User Picture]From: tlively35486
2005-11-24 04:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I really feel for you; you have another month of Christmas decor. Much love
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From: dunelm7
2005-11-24 03:13 pm (UTC)
I hear you on all of the above.

But know one thing, having you as a friend is one thing that makes me happy. =)

Much love, Matt
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[User Picture]From: tlively35486
2005-11-24 04:16 pm (UTC)
Awww...thanks.
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From: _andthenirun
2005-11-25 01:35 am (UTC)
I hope you'll start feeling better soon. You're not going to be alone, I promise.
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[User Picture]From: blenderboi
2005-11-26 07:00 pm (UTC)
...sadly I have to say hat, I had no idea T. :-\

talk to me i'm always around (haha)
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